I've been overweight my whole life. Seriously - WHOLE Life. I remember being 5 years old and being told I shouldn't be wearing a 6X yet. It was hard growing up around siblings who were in shape and LOVED to exercise. But - no matter what I did, I was overweight. Please don't take this as me looking for pity! I will get to my point eventually.
In high school, I was on swim team and track and field to try to keep myself in shape. But....I wasn't. One of my worst memories of high school was being on swim team and our coach picking out swim suits - but they didn't come in my size and I couldn't squeeze into the largest size they had available. So I had to wear a different suit. A different swim suit than everyone else on the team. In High school. Horrifying. But I did it. High school sucked. Didn't help that my dad passed away my senior year, but that's a WHOLE different post.
I was never in shape or at a weight that wasn't considered obese. It's just how I've been my.whole.life. It's frustrating when people say - just don't eat junk food. I'm not a "sweets" eater - I am a "savory" which is worse sometimes. BUT...I don't eat a lot. I truly don't. I love my fruits and veggies, etc.
To make matters worse - in 2001 - I shattered my ankle. Let me give you a bit of the back story - I was training to work at this amazing camp that i had gone to every summer growing up. We were at the ropes course, doing the wall. The dreaded wall. And I fell. 3 feet. While my leg was supposed to be facing forward, my toes were pointed at my other foot. My ankle was popped severely out of place and shattered. I was sent from one hospital to a hospital more "friendly" to this sort of severe damage. I went straight into surgery. When I woke up, I asked every person in my room if I still had a foot as I thought it was gone. That was one terrible summer. I was in 10 casts over 3 months. I was told I could not put pressure, touch my toes to the ground, nothing - for fear I would re-break my ankle. Once the casts were taken off and I was put into a brace (for a year), I was told what all was wrong - I have metal (which I have to carry a note through security at the airport), dead bone (due to circulation cut off), and no ligaments or cartilage in my ankle. I do not have full movement in my ankle either. I do not have the ability to run or jump due to the limited movement. I worked my behind off in physical therapy. I did not want folks to know that I had an injury. I do not walk with a limp - except when I've been walking TOO long. I can't be on my feet for very long periods of time. I have to wear sneakers most of the time. I can not wear heels. It's pretty frustrating - but I have learned to adapt.
Now, back on track. All of this being said - I'm still overweight! We have established that! But, I want, no...I NEED to get in shape. I don't foresee myself losing TONS of weight. I am a big boned girl. I've come to grips with that. I'm never going to be a size 6. My hip bones are too big for that and my shoulders are too broad. BUT, I would LOVE to shop in a "normal" size store instead of always seeing this hideous "big girl" clothes that look like what my mom wears. Seriously - there are big girls that are YOUNG - design clothes for us!
So, it's a new year. 2014. I am going on a big trip in May. I want to lose weight. I want to feel great while hiking to the Huka falls. So. I bought a FitBit one . I have only had it one day. But I am looking forward to it helping me watch my steps, count the calories I burn, help me with sleep, etc. I am limited to the sorts of exercise I can do, due to my ankle. But I am sure going to try my darndest. I'd love encouragement, suggestions, etc!
Do you have a fitbit? If so - lets be fitbit friends!! Send me your name (you can post it in comments or send me a private message).
Sorry this is a boring post with no pictures.
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